Hey you! what's more about you?.

I dont have a talent of writing novel or poem.
I dont have a great life to tell..
I dont have a things to show..
I dont know how to play guitar..
i'm not that knowledgeable..
and my face's not as justin bieber face..or korean shit.
but i still have one. a completely perfect face..with two eyes that could see, a nose that could breath and smell and a mouth that could breath and eat..and all of that come together to call a complete human look. i really thankful for that.

my life is..
what i could say..it's clueless, blur
my pockets broke as hell. And i used to it.
I had a driver..and a really big car, they call it bus.
yep! that's my regular transportation.
i'm not a poor guy, cause i still have something to eat and i'm not starving. i really thankful for that.
i had a shelter called rent house, cause i couldn't afford to have a fully own house.
my phone not even have a camera.
and in these few days..it's not even working on talking..it keep off and off again and again if i speak more than 2 minutes. damn!

Dreams..I had it a lot. but the serious one for life is...
i wanna be an engineer in construction field.
but my SPM (sijil pelajaran Malaysia) wasn't that good. it's not that my head is full of shit or something...
it's just..i dont have that einstein brain kind, but i still had a brain, even it's a regular one, still a perfect one with no damage as a normal human. and i thankful for that.
with a limited result and fund.. i just could take a certificate level at polytechnic.
After graduate from polytechnic..i further my study at college in KL.
but..the fees are too much, i couldn't afford it.
MARA's just funding a brilliant brain bumiputra kids, and me..i'm just an ordinary bumiputra guy who had a normal brain. so, just forget it.
( by the way..i really hate this bumiputra and non-bumiputra things. i wish i could change it. the politic view in malaysia is just full of bullshit, and the government keep shittin' around.)
So, i quit. and 2 years wasted.
Then, in 2009 i further study for my diploma at polytechnic again.
and i made it, i graduate successfully..in age 24.

Finding a job is really hard,
most of the companies..they just want an experienced employee.
a fresh graduate, it's just difficult to find a seat, to get accepted.
i had post my resume over 300+ on jobstreet..jobcentral..emailed direct to companies.
still no answer.
right now..i'm working at cyber cafe somewhere in kepong.
sure it's fun..free internet, you could play games, or online shit.
but, there's no life..no future.
so, my plan now is..i'll take IELTS this year. and enter nott.univ next year, if i can and if they accept me.
I'll take my degree. and finish it on my 29 years of life, if it went smooth..I hope it went smooth.

Love,..
Aha!. i never had a lover before till now.
it's not that i'm a picky guy or a gay..i'm truly straight guy.
i used to like some girls, but i got rejected..10 times as i could remember.
some girls used to like me..but i refuse to accept them.
i dont hate them..it's a matter of heart, you just cant force it.


that's more of me.

Now..i really think that I've become a real 'MADAO'.